The Cancer

I am obsessed with her now.

That heartless whore!

How dare she weasel her way into my home, creep into my bed and rapture my husband with her tight embrace. I didn’t see her coming and by the time I recognized her scent, it was too late.

I have asked them to stop seeing each other but they refuse.

My husband says, “I wish! But it is not as easy as that. This may be someone we have to deal with for the rest of our lives”

I’ve screamed, cried, pleaded my case,

“We can change! Get rid of her and we can make a better life! What can I do? How can I make this better? I can be a better wife!”

Is there such a thing as better?

Miracles happen right?

There's a God, right?

Just go through the motions and we will be all right!

Right?

He doesn’t look at me the same way now.

And I blame her.

Damn right, I do!

Ever since she came around I can’t sleep or even think. My husband and I now stay in separate bedrooms. I agonize in emotional anguish all night in our California king as he writhes in his adjustable twin… with her.

Kissing her black lips.

Entwined in her lovers grip.

Anchored between her gyrating hips.

Have I mentioned how much I hate this bitch?!

She doesn’t care about our family or our sacrifices. It is as if the past decade no longer exists. What we built and who we’d hoped to become are all metaphors for our past.

A past, like a fading light, which represents a future I will strive for once more.

And her!

Look at her!

Her, with her nonchalant airs!

They spark fits of rage in my core.

I want to hunt her like a hawk would its prey, circling down upon her, diving in for the kill. Clawing at her neck as I rise high. My talons would loosen as I drop her from the sky. Ensuring she has nothing less than a most violent death.

Others say I am overreacting.

Everything will be fine.

I should back off.

Because, they know her better than I!

There is a protocol to follow.

Soon it will all be all right.

We’re young.

We can handle it.

It’s merely a matter of time.

But how can they all say this as my life is ripped to shreds?

Why won’t anyone help me fight this demon? Before she lays in all of our beds!